Discontent - the desire for more than I’ve been given.
Regret - the conviction that my life didn’t turn out the way I planned.
I know better than you what I need.
I am able to guide my life better than you.
So begins an independent spirit, Lord.
So begins rebellion.
So begins idolatry.
So begins practical atheism.
In the words of Ann Voskamp, I say the yes to you, but I live the no.1
How utterly amazing, then, that in the end, you awake from sleep and put the adversaries of my soul (those ideas, philosophies, thoughts, influences, attitudes, etc. that seek to distract me from allegiance to you) to rout and put them to everlasting shame.
1 Voskamp, Ann. One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are, 1000 Gifts. Zondervan, 2011.